Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Is THIS love?

When the world is falling down around me
There you are
And when I have nothing else,
I still have you.
Even when I push you away
With cruel words and dagger-like actions,
You come back for more.

And I can try to destroy you, ruin you,
But you persevere
I just don't understand the way you feel.
Honestly, I don't think I ever will.

Monday, May 7, 2012

You're a part of everyone, but I'm not your someone.

I make mistakes
And I keep making them;
I know what I'm doing
But you sure don't.
I keep going back for more
For something I'm not getting here.
I don't know what it is,
Though I wish I did
So I could ask for it from you
Instead of from him.

And he gives it
(whatever it is)
And he gives it good
(whatever it is)
Oh I know what this is
And it's not good.
But I'm so good at doing
The wrong things.

You're so wrong.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Thursday, April 5, 2012

New Guy (I have a date...)

You're becoming my favorite colors
And my favorite cups of coffee
The vanilla and the extra cream
The lucky cigarette.
You're the parts in the movies
Where the guy gets the girl
Or vice versa
(in this case).
But is two months long enough?
I can't lie and say the dreams are all gone
Or that I don't think about him,
I'm not doing it on purpose.

Your voice, though,
And your mouth;
Your eyes...
It's almost worth it,
To pretend.

Saturday, March 31, 2012

The Clubs and the Lights and the Alcohol (I forgot you)

When you have nothing to say
Just make shit up
And if there's nothing nice
Then just shut up
(and kiss me)
Meaning doesn't exist
When the lights go off
And it's so easy to lie
As long as you don't get caught up


I've realized
That as long as there's a you
And a me
In this world
There are going to be people asking
Why we're not together.
I'm okay with this, finally,
Because now I know the answer.

Thursday, March 29, 2012

My Life.

I'm encumbered by bills And negative balances Behind on everything. Struggling at work, Struggling to sleep, Forgetting to eat. I'm missing home And school And my friends, Family too. Stress, Stress, Stress And some more. But I'm fine. Honestly, I almost love it.