I have to stop doing this to myself -
Believing that if I just DO the right combination of things
My life will come back together again.
And I don't mean moving on -
I mean getting my life BACK.
I want to relive late November, early December
And the months that followed,
Like a track on repeat
Except it would skip at April -
Just go back to the end of November
When everything was okay
And play again.